A Situation Where I had to Find Strength When I Felt Weak

 Oh, man. Like, everyday. I was formally diagnosed with clinical depression some time ago, and I've been off my antidepressants for around two months because I've just neglected to FaceTime my psych and get a re-up. Going to school is a battle in and of itself and I have to muster the resilience from nowhere just to keep myself from tweaking out on a daily basis. I'll be fine, though. I'm a gangsta, y'all know how I do. 

I did my vocab homework and we've started reading The Color Purple in class. This book is an impossible read. It's so visceral and gut-wrenching and discouraging at times that it's hard for me to imagine anyone reading it for fun-for the love of the game. I want to call it trauma porn but I feel like that's a reductive interpretation of its narrative weight and undermines its startlingly accurate portrayal of black femininity, especially of the time in which it's set. It's a good book but...damn, man. You know?

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